Blehx

Im back =D

2010-08-04T02:25:00.002+08:00

Hoho, after so long, im finally back to my blog =).

Well, poly life hasn't been that great for me, everything seems like going against me.
i failed my important subject paper, and i guess im going fail another paper (Y)

Lots of project that has minor mistake but is enough to kill me.
Though there is only 2 semester end paper, but heard both of them are killer paper

Lots of unhappy things happen to me in my family
but luckily, im still have my darling with me to console me and listening to me vent!

im sorry for my bad temper this few days
im feeling so stress up, scare that i could not pass and graduate with u at the same time.
i scare that i may just end up as a PHD, *poly halfway dropout*, haix.
maybe im scaring myself, but somehow i do not have the usual confident like i used to have.
i have become more and more discouraged, more and more stress.
let just hope i could get over this period. =(
god bless me. although i have no god to bless me over =/.
the end =)

FML

2010-06-05T12:14:00.002+08:00

Love consist care, understanding and love.
any of this missing from the guy
means that guy is useless and not worth to be with
how come i got a feeling that im like that?
FML i sux. that all.

Days without you!

2010-04-04T14:16:00.002+08:00

I'm so bored! Realize that without her, my days are so boring =O
1week more! shall bear with it ! hahaz

Ytd Went out with Zk.Co to PS,
eat, chatted, slack. hahaz
Took alot of picture, BUT my hair suck, so i have decide to go reborn again~
This tuesday ba =), school also starting soon, so i guess i going to have to adapt the life in poly.

And i have paid for my O level English Fee, Which mean i going to Work hard
and make sure i pass! =( hope so. hahaz
Ok bah i shall end le, packing my room halfway =X
Bye

I will cherish u more!
end.

hopeless home

2010-02-28T18:07:00.002+08:00

My mood now is nothing.
which mean that i dun feel angry or sad
the reason for this, is because i dun care for this anymore
the more they look down on me, the more i will prove to them
the moment i make a mark in my life, i will treat them like how they treat me
they don't listen to my explanation, i won't listen to them=)
people are meant to trust each other
once the trust is broken, nothing will fixed it
so i made up my mind, family = shit
home = hopeless
home and family = nothing.

okok, i dun talk about this le =D is meaningless to dwell on it
Well, i'm back to Maplee!!!! playing the newest server

ending, IHTF

i hate my family

2010-02-27T23:41:00.002+08:00

i hate my family.
a mum who good at any accusing me, who dont care about me.
who backstab me which i hate the most
ask her face to face, and she dont dare to say
what the fuck is this man *sry, i'm too fed up already.
plus my sis in law also.

pls, i hate backstabber the most.....
i feel like running away from my home, well how can i call this home.
full of people "bs" u...
FK my family.

just that i thought today is a happy day
because i get to spend a day out with my clique,
who knew that a spoiler who come along with it.

ok, i dun feel like typing more,
Ending post
: I HATE MY FAMILY.

hate myself

2010-02-25T00:19:00.002+08:00

i sux, that one word for me.

i can't seems to do anything right for now.
minus and minus till zero? .................

I really feel so bad, the promise that i said, failed.
the end of this post.

finally =D

2010-02-13T17:28:00.001+08:00

I will be able to blog more from now on!!!
my laptop wireless can work le =D change to T-link. cost me 65$ =(
i'm officially broke ! =(

And now my family is busy preparing tonight steamboat =)
Is going to be a very filling night heh
and this week i went to gym 1 time only.
i feeling very lazy lar =o
and next week maybe also no time he =o
hahaz ok lar, i go see what i can download =D
BYE

and my D is going to bangkok =o
missing her liao =x

Family?

2010-01-30T22:52:00.002+08:00

Somehow, i dun feel like my family, is family. got what i mean?
Like a home which does not belong to me
a freaking liar mum which is totally selfish?
and twist what she say before =)
what a great mum =)

A brother? which don't care about the family? Cool right?

Just went out to have a family dinner
it make me feel that, i'm a stranger?
the whole dinner, i nv even talk at all
which actually to me is consider peaceful =)

Seriously man, i going to look for a job
and not spend my mum's money, except my daily allowances
a laptop? she find so many reason to reject it
e.g , LATER LOST , SO EX , USE SO GOOD FOR WHAT =)
cool reason right?
seriously man, I got such a "great" mum =)
like what i used to say
orphan is so much better, at least there will people who care for u =)
how fortunate...

oyah, didn't they say the last child is always the best?
nah, i think other way

for now, i just feel so empty
no more sadness or anger
i don't care anymore, as for i know i can live on my own
with friends is enough i guess
if not, alone =D
( heh i still got my darling =D)
not too bad uh?

Useless

2010-01-22T23:04:00.001+08:00

hoho, Very long nv update my blog le.
i just came by here to type something =D

Now i'm working at chinatown, selling mushroom-.-
and they are really cheap man. Not the mushroom, is our pay-.-
3$ per hour, plus one packet of mushroom we sell, we earn 1$-.-
sian sia-.- sunday i dun feel like working le=D heh
ok i lazy type le=)

i feel so useless
i cant share ur problem
only thing i can do, is just stand by you
hate myself for this.

2010-01-06T01:42:00.002+08:00

Hoho now the time is 1.44am =D 16min left..

Is Sales really so fated to me? hahaz
I found another sales job, but this time got hourly pay=D
Friday then go down interview, cause later in the afternoon got CCA carnival.
plus thursday going to TP open hse =)
So yup, friday then free... hahaz
I wonder this year de Sec1 batch how sia, wonder izit more GL !
Plus "misses" canteen food sia, so must go have lunch at there... hehez

Just now went out to blade. actually don't feel like de, but xueli and ben ask =x
so i go lor, realise got, Shinee clarabelle pearlyn....
after that Zul , fifi , jared hanyi joined us awhile, they went play lan .... heh
Slack awhile at there till 10plus then went home =D with jared
brought drink on the way home..........

ok =) i shall end here.. heh

Silent is always scary
A person leave without
any sound is what adds on to it
although the feeling will be gone
it will still need quite a long time to heal
so to avoid that
something must be played
so that it wont be as scary as ever
-Sky
woots long time nv write quotes le heh
my new creation, -Silent Music-

What this?

2010-01-03T03:08:00.003+08:00

Hoho is the 2nd day of the new year man!

2009 was a very busy year
-O level, SYF, plus alot more =D
it was a year that i put alot of hardship in, and builds more relationship!!!
many great buddy friendship are stable now =)
Zul, Fifi , Jacob , Xueli, WJ.... These are my 5yrs friend man!
five freaking years =DDDDD Haah!!! cheers
Steven , lilian , ben , Bryant , zuhao, Shawn! are rank number 2 =DD
sound so gay? =X haha!!
Many more lar =DD like eg. ZK!!! hhaz

This year consider my "lucky" year =)
dont ask me why, i just feel it this way... hahaz
Although there are some stuff which is down case for me lar
but there are many more ups !!

On the last day of the year, i spent it with Joey xueli roy Steven louis.
at the chalet overnight =D
Although after i came back, i fell sick +(
plus now still having abit slight fever.. hahaz but it was worth it isn't it?

The only one thing i'm still not really ...... dunno what word to describe
this is what i care for now i guess?
if i know what to do, i would sure done it.......
time? i dunno, will time solve it?
sorry for doubting, i have my reason....
is just so unsafe to me after all...
sorry

Christmas!

2009-12-23T21:38:00.002+08:00

Christmas is coming to town~

Finally got time to blog le =D
been very busy lately, due to work
heh, somehow i love my job, get to know alot of people and places that i have nv been before!
although some people is troublesome lar-.-
is ok, i will get used to it i guess
Plus today i won the bonus, super happy lar!
i tot i cant sell anything today-.-, stupid cheena people

Tmr working till 1plus , let hope i can clear fast bah
i go watch my tv le =) , bye~

sian

2009-12-19T19:53:00.002+08:00

today such a sucky day sia =(
perfume nv sell well, drench in rain, plus had a stupid dreams =o

Today went to Tampines to sell, all those people there so sian de
*give me ur number lar, i call u* -.- number one sian
plus today not really in good mood eh, haix

plus now ...........................................................................................................................
dunno what my mum doing, so hungry-.-
ok lar, dunwan blog le cya~

i fear and scare
shows how impt are u to me
hope it wont happen =)

cool

2009-12-15T00:53:00.002+08:00

Thanks S for following me down to TP to do some stuff =D haha!
Meet her at 10plus, slack till 2 then we go down
then went to tampines for lunch and went down to vivo slack till 8 =D
as usual, chitchat about some stupid stuff ~
oyah she skip her bbq to accompany me can =D so sweet !
after that went back to sengkang slack again....
and then we went home after that

Tmr CLASS chalet =D feel bad for not helping things much
so tmr i shall make myself useful =D
ok lar i end here le bye ~

if u nv get out of that path
how am i suppost to walk in
clear the memories
invite the new ones~

sweet

2009-12-13T19:29:00.003+08:00

Yesterday night was great =D
changi beach was super duper cooling lar!
i went down with S, sit and chitchat at there.
sit for around 3hrs? and we went for dinner!
the chicken chop over there was not too bad, but the soup sux only ...
plus i'm the one who finish drinking it +( hahaz
went home at 10++
reach home at 11+

Today decided to stay at home and slack =D
nothing to do mah
ben come over my hse to ply dota....
2 rounds only-.-
and now all my sister in law, friends family all here-.- her b'day today
haha oh great, i go rot again le=D cya~

damn

2009-12-12T11:38:00.002+08:00

Screw everything man..................................
seriously i hate staying at this house
who wants a mother who dont fking care me?
She freaking just dun understanding me!
seriously man i rather be a orphan
since i'm almost like one already
VENT!!!!

living and settle alone
i dun find it as a bad idea
damn everything!

Finally +D

2009-12-05T13:16:00.002+08:00

I'm back to jobless again -.-
what a retarded job can, go there sell tickets cheat people money
although is a registered company, but somehow i dun believe it still =0
i work for free yesterday, well forget it =D

blame on my itchy hand i found out somethings
something that make me clear the doubt =)
I knew it from the start when , he told me about this
the thing he say , was keep on running in my mind
it just hard to believe it.
Maybe , i'm just a shield? or maybe i think too much
but after today
the doubt have been clear =)
i'm sucha stupid guy
nv gonna believe in u or what u say (not the guy*)
plus dont ever say stuff u dun meant it =)
this is just what i wan to say
end

2009-11-21T23:33:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Dearest =D
owe u ur present 1st! hahaz

Lilian and me =D
*hard to get her permission to post lor*

Haha! all the handsome fooling around =D

my 1st debut, although i know something esle-.-

Thanks To dennis! the photographer =D
he did a great job ! haha!
Yesterday de grad high was much more FUN than last year!!!
Food was great tooo!
Take and take pictures =D , i slim down alot, that what alot people said
but i dun think so lei lol....

After grad high went to a cafe =D
sort of celebrate xueli b'day there lar.. hahaz
then went to kovan for pool =D
too long nv ply le, rusty skill liao ........

and for today nothing much happen =)
ok i shall end here , bye~
signing off

It hard to meet the right one
but if u met one
what can u do?
nothing right.
how sad is this man!

A long lost feeling ohmy!

2009-11-19T22:30:00.003+08:00

people twist , we threeist Haha!

heh =D

F4 fans HAHA =x

I bet alot of people still miss tprawks =D cause i do heh

Today went for the stupid JAE talk, freaking waste of time
and then went to jam le =D
today jam was quite good??? HAHA let hope tmr we done a good perfomance =)

i wondering where to go after my grad high ~ heh
ok lar i got nothing to type le ~
Signing off ~

end of TpRawks!

2009-11-19T01:23:00.003+08:00

me, Haziq, WJ, Royston!!!

is the tattoo ar, not our muscle =x

Cheire and me =) our green finger~

I still very high!!!! TP Oiii!!!! Haha!
Time flies when people are having fun =)
it the 3rd le, which mean the last day !

Went through sciences and info technology course =x
well, i have no interest though =o
the food today was great ! heh

evening, mediacorp artist came!!!! Jade seah and michelle chew came !
omg lar xD so cool! haha!
and we had our dance and jam band there too
it was hell lot of fun =)
after the whole event finish ,
we nv go house =), we went to take photo heh!
after that then went home hahaz

Tprawks - through this, i make quite alot of friend xD
so cool oh? heh, TP is confirm a place for me to go ! Tp rawks my socks ~ haha
okok , i gtg le =D night!!!!!

Tprawks 2!

2009-11-18T00:26:00.002+08:00

Wj , Kairu and me =D
(Alfo Green!!!!!!!!!) boomz haha!

Today Day 2 ! it was fun! haha!
somehow, me roy wj become F4-.- haha! crazy right?
plus we did lots of crazy stuff =D
we know a good fetcher heh , his our entertainer =D! i like!
We learn the TP mass dance ! it was fun to dance xD
unlike other dance we have learn
Plus we are inside top 5! for the rawkers challenge

Although today it was tiring , somehow i felt it was much more better
than yesterday haha!
Tmr is day 3 which is last day ! which mean
it's going to be more FUN!
Jam and hop, mass dance , mediacorp artist !
HAHA more picture tmr!
signing off ~

TpRawks 09

2009-11-16T22:47:00.003+08:00

Today is the 1st day of the TPrawks =D
what should i say about it??
overall is abit sian and not sian =x
because , when people going to be high le, they need to go somewhere esle-.-
is irritating.

Singapore idol top5 Came =D and sylvia was from TP
isn't that cool?? haha!
-did Business course *everything*
-social etiquette
-Dancing
-cheering
consider boring hor? =x
All the picture is at
www.tp4me.blogspot.com =D
go there and see ! heh

Tmr day 2 =D , let hope is better than today bah =)
i end here le Cya~

A time machine
that when use
will cause side effect
will you still use it??

thinking....

2009-11-16T00:27:00.002+08:00

O level has finish, and now is offically holiday.

but i find it very sucky, seriously, nth to do, stone and play lan

no life sia

i wonder what job will i find this time, izit a fun? high paid? or what

and now , i like to play tennis =D

its so fun lar, but i cant seem to book a court lor =( so stupid

Well, yesterday is ZUL b'day=D i know him for 5 yrs le heh

long right? always there for me

always a phone call, he just come le =D*ok lar not always*

hope he and his gf Last long =DD

Went dota with him today =D

actually is prata de , somehow it got cancel =0

not bad lar, i also no mood go =)

and tmr i got tp rawks

hehe! get to know more people le

and going with wj.co

sweet lar =D, wont be so lonely lol

let hope i will see the girl that i 1st met at tp =x

ok i signing off =)

somehow everything change

i dun think is i thinking too much

i cant do anything anyway

-this is the mistake i regretted *

seriously

Endless rain

2009-11-05T14:02:00.002+08:00

Left with 2 paper! woots. the feeling is so shuang daoo~~~
tmr is lit paper, let hope it not very difficult heh

other than that, i feel like i got nothing to post le
apart from saying im watching prince of tennis this few days =x
finally reach 100!!! heh.
Working days are going to be here
i cant wait for it =D those midnight live
eat supper with friends
super shiock =x heh

ok lar i end here le =D
byeee

S.e.i.g.a.k.u
[tezuka]

O levels ENDING

2009-11-04T06:39:00.002+08:00

Heh, Came here to clean up the spider web =x hahaz
it has been so dead!

Left with 3 paper =D and in 1hr + time is physics paper =)
heh , let hope nothing went wrong =(
Paper so far has been not bad
I'm so tired lar, woke up early in the morning to recap on physics
after today i can sleep nicely le =x haha!

Somehow i have the urge to play tennis =x
watching too much anime le lar
it's seems very fun =D from all the running and other stuff!
i go prepare to go school le =D
bye~

somehow i felt that
i have taken the wrong road
i shld not have walk down this path
i shld not even consider it
the things i felt now
is not like what other people can feel
let just hope i'm paranoid
but this time
i am listening to people advice
and not myself anymore

Existance-.-

2009-10-15T23:17:00.003+08:00

Today is last of school
but somehow i didn't enjoy it -.-
some irritant make me fed up

Seriously man ... my maths got 44/80 -.-
it make my mood go till damn low already
1st time so low -.-
nvm this le bah

nvm i shall stop here
no mood to post

-edited-

Encouragement

2009-10-12T23:25:00.002+08:00

10 more days =0
somehow my lucky day is over
and for now all the bad day coming to me le ! omg-.-

Wanted to doing english compo for teacher to mark
but no have the feeling lei.
somehow i'm still trouble over somethings
TIME MANAGEMENT
is what i'm going to plan le
i shall put more for L =)
and ven. hahaz
Intense training for them i think?? haha!

I hope i would be able to help them bah
realize i'm a lousy teacher?

got back my chem paper
damn discouraging can
i have high hope for this -.- and somehow i got this kind of mark
seriously no more slacking
struggle for the last lap
and play for the rest of the month le
siong sia!

ok lar i go back study le +D
cya

i hope u dont give up
seriously
u can make it de
dont say all those discouraging
things ok?
if u do not have the faith in urself
i cant do anything de
so for now
" I CAN DO IT "
say this in ur mind =D
hahaz u know who u are =D

misery

2009-10-11T02:11:00.002+08:00

11 more day to Science practical
then actual paper will start soon =o

Been studying the whole week sia -.-
very tiring.
Tired tired tired....

oyah, other than studying.
i got go dota =D
this week 2times only haha! need to distress de right? haha!

ok nth to post-.-
my eyes is closing ...
bye

2009-10-07T23:55:00.002+08:00

Just return from mac =D
Chatted at there with vincent . co
Saw liting and esther =D

end..

Faithful is a word
Playful is also a word

Attitude

2009-10-07T17:55:00.002+08:00

Damn tired-.- should have sleep at home sia today.
Went to dota with benny, hanyi and wei jie =D
this is my last le =D
officially no money =(

Save save save!!!

ok lar i going night class soon le=)
cya

it's ending soon
i must decide it soon
carry on
or let go =O

Sick!

2009-10-06T23:26:00.002+08:00

zzzz
i think i'm falling sick le sia.
sorethroat and flu -.-
my nose dropping le lar.

Last 19 Day! to O level !
I wan to clear it faster
so i can work, play , enjoy my Night life!!!

ok lar nothing to post =D
end

one word
impossible

a new life

2009-10-04T20:09:00.002+08:00

Finally, my biggest trouble is over =)
oct 1st will be the day i forever remember in my heart
although, my dad nv spend much of the time with me
we are still blood related right?
so i just went down to his funeral ytd ..
All unfamiliar faces, which i nv seen before
luckily zul went down with me
thanks alot brother, thanks =)

My father was a christian, so they held a service
by heart of god.
i met my step sister and brother there
and somehow i become uncle, and got 2 niece =o
interesting isn't it?

while at there, they were crying , but i was not.
reason is very simple
i wont cry for this
as i know, everyone will leave soon
only at different timing
went home around 10

Went to play lan with fifi.co
till 3am+ walk home

and for today, i went back there to attend the cremation
met my mum's friend over there
somehow, they wanted to bring their ashes back to ipoh
isn't it weird? they ask me to go back
to see all the relative that i dun even know it exist

after the whole thing, went back to bishan
take picture with my 2 niece =)

cut hair and went home change then go study le =D
busy life right? haha!

To those who care
i'm really ok =)
the end =)

the love i use to gave
is repeating itself again

A stand that i made =)

2009-10-01T22:14:00.002+08:00

Some crazy things happen in our class
again. lol
This year got alot of problem sia =x
but well, we are still a class, must live harmony tgt mah.
but sometimes is hard to do so =)

had maths test after school today.
it was a difficult paper?, but still passable bah
seriously , the result i getting now
is so sucky =l, for me lar.
no offend! *just in case*

haha i going back study le =D
cya everyone

thanks for the concern=)
i'm really ok =D
haha